her birthday coming up..wish her could always be happy..
accidently found man shoes and sexy underwear in her shopping list.
so i think she already got some one that she love and care about.
still....she is a wonderful girl, and she deserve all the best thing in the world

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind...

god i miss her....so~~~ much.....

Spending my time
watching the days go by..
feeling so small
i stare at the wall
hoping that u...are missing me too...

发现一个有趣的规律，姑且叫自动补偿定律，哈哈
只要没见她超过一周，晚上就会梦见她，而且频率逐步升高。
昨晚的梦已经记不清了，只记得和她一起坐在沙发上看书，全身的血液几乎都失去重量，轻飘飘的，唯一还有感知的只剩左边小腿，因为贴着她的右腿。。。^0^

well, she like it...
that's great.
going out this afternoon to prepair the next concert for her, haha...

updating blog again..
been asking her out since monday.
now the week almost passed and she seems to be busy every day
well, i am happy for her but a little bit sad for myself
the gift has been in the closet for a week and i think he needs to see his owner...so as i ....
maybe i still have to wait... she will come to me when the time comes...

“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more.” ----from The Count of Monte Cristo, now for the man who has tasted heaven, unless he could stay there, the rest of the days feel like hell...

well, it's not that bad really, but still....i miss her...

words can't express what she mean to me...
the feeling of holding her lying on the sofa and chating.....
kind of hope that time just stop there so we can stay forever..
i don't even wanna get up to go to the bathroom...
afraid that she might vanish when i turn my head...
i must be the happiest people in the world...
can't imagine how could a man let go such a wonderful things....
i will cherish her till..................there is no end...haha....

.....seems like she will not show up around xuhui area in the near future
i had been waiting for so long.....
so i better send the iphone to her by express tomorrow so she can use it for her gmat study...
honestly i would be more than happy to send it myself, but i am afraid she does not want to see me un-announcely appear in her front door, maybe it would cause her another trouble due to her jealously bf...haha
so....
i wanted to buy her a 3g so i can keep this one coz this one means a lot to me...
but 3gs is coming and with better feature
so i wait and wait..and wait...
but until now 3gs still no cracked yet, so there is not much things to play on it......
maybe bought her a led beamer is a better option
to celebrate her new born? or it would be a nice entertainment if she really go to teach in a village..

just now i was lying on bed sleepy, but somehow just have the feeling that she might be online
so i came to have a look, she really is....though it was late and we could only chat a few,
i am still happy to just see her icon blue....not grey.......

well, she is not happy...
for some reason..she said about some family affairs...
so...i think i should do something...

just now i am thinking about send her 2 tickets for jonna wang's concert at the end of this month
but maybe she will be upset coz that would make her feel a little bit pressure, which i don't want her to ...
so...i came up with another idea that....if i could ask jonna a favour to deliver the tickets herself
and told her that's a luck pick out of her fans....
but that 's just a daydream right? haha...
anyway, i will ask her if she wants to go with me, that's might be the best way to do it...
and either she agree or not, i get to hear her voice again...
that's my only comfort during the days i can not see her....

god，it's really not easy to get up here...
it has been 28 days since i last saw her..
my heart is dying without her smile..

bought a lot of equipments for iphone...
and throw away some ugly of them...
still afraid she might be unhappy coz i bought things without her permittion..
but i can't help it every time i saw little cute things, i want her to have them...

talked to her on the phone this morning
can't see her afternoon
but tomorrow might be some chance
so ...looking forward to ....

she send me a smile 10 minutes ago on msn
while she appear offline...
so...maybe she is hiding from sb..
glad that ain't me...haha...
dream that i bought an apartment near work
and placed nice sofa and projector and fancy home theatre...
so i could invite her over to watch film together..
and the kitchen is big and handy so we can make food late at night
and there also a secret room that we could build the train world inside...
what a wonderful world...

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every time I pray
I'll be missing you
....

saw someone like her near the scooer field this afternoon
with a small crowd taking picture, maybe for graduation....
dressed like her style, similiar hair and outline...
so i just lying there and staring at her for over 30 minutes
don't want to get too close to find out that it's just some stranger
rather watch over long distance so it feels like watching the love of my life is making beautiful poses ...haha...

loooooooong time no see....甚念.......

waked by her call this morning
best morning call ever....haha...
what a wonderful world it would be if i can wake up every morning in her sweet whisper...

now is 3 pm in the morning again...lying on bed...ready to dream about her...
sweet dream...to both of us...

thought this place was closed
but only blocked by the gov...faint...

miss her....
feels like have not seen her for years..
but when i think of the times we spent together, it feels just like yesterday..
maybe because all other memories are bypassed...not important.....haha...

lying on bed to see the 6th game of rocket va laker
and wondering where she is
will she at work today
or doing something else
pray to see her sunday
but it's all right if she feel shy to show up
anyway, i have spent over whole eight hours with her on wednesday
that's good enough for me...

想飞到那最高最远最洒脱
想拥抱在最美的那一刻
想看见陪我到最后谁是朋友
你是我最期待的那一个

btw: it's really good to hear her voice

great night....
all i can say is that's really the kind of night that dreams come ture
besides i had been dreamed of working with her again for months
tonight took back a lot of sweet memories to me..
but still, wish she can have a nice rest after all these tiring testing...
and everything for the best of her family....
well, gotta go to bed now...sorry little piggy, i can't walk you tonight...
that's your sacrifice for my love,haha...

dream lover come rescue me
take me up, take me down, take me any where you want to baby
i need you so just with me
won't you please come around
coz i wanna share forever with you .....baby....

boring at home all day
work out too much for last three days..
now every muscle pains..

still missing her
what she doing during such heat weather?

o yeah~
she called me back....
that's ....beyond words...
here by i declare this moment the best moment of today...
well, unless she come by for dinner tonight, haha~

wanna call her...wanna hear her voice
but afraid of interruption...
she said she will be busy testing until middle of may
so...maybe i should wait till she finish...
anyway, a sms won't hurt i guess...

而每過一天這一天這醉著
愿愛你多些再多些至滿瀉
我發覺我最愛與你編寫
以后每天的深夜

而每過一天這一天這情深瀉
愿愛你多些然后再多一些
我最愛你與我這生一起
哪懼明天風高路斜。。。

想见你，我的心
每天生活只剩呼吸
多希望，下一秒就见到你

上班。。。。游目四顾，寻寻觅觅冷冷清清凄凄惨惨戚戚。。。。
知我者，谓我心忧，不知我者，谓我何求。。。。
苍天啊，大地啊，想死我了。。。
orz。。。。。

今天阳光真好，又想起来第一次见到她那天，记得也是阳光明媚。
看着她跟在dr.z后面沿着走廊朝我走来，巧笑倩兮，霎那间太阳也失去了光彩。
不知道哪来的勇气就迎上前去，握手，交谈，吃饭。。。。感觉自己从未那么主动。。
第一次握她的小手，软软的柔若无物，回味无穷啊。。。
虽然她吃过饭就先走了，心里的痕迹，可没那么容易消逝呐。。。。
是什么时候知道她名花有主的呢，应该是之后的不久吧，可能还偷偷难过了一段时间，哈哈。。。
不过每天能见到她的笑颜，也就心满意足了罢。
但是心里总还是有一丝渴望，希望她的幸福能由我来谱写。

**********************思维分割线***************************************

maybe that's part of the reason i leave for the new position.
when the chance came that i could make a fortune, i grab it..
but that's really hard to work without her...
for the first two weeks, i did not went to the office at all...
just hang around in the big city all day and try to contact her....
still remember when i sit in the big stair of the stadium keep calling her for the whole afternoon..

and when i start working, the happiest time of the day is to receive her calls
i usually went up to the roof to talk to her
where is quite and peace, only birds and wind can hear us ..

we made great progress one day...
that's the sweetest thing in the world....
i just wanna say that if there is heaven, i have already been there...
and i told her that i wanna be with her for the rest of my life
but she said she doesnot want to leave her beloved someone..
i have to understand and fall back
i would wait...until my chances come, even for decades...even we are too old to walk...i will be waiting...for you..

it really breaks my hearts in pieces when she forget about my birthday.
my heart sink right to the bottom of the ocean....
well, it still crazy about her, but it tooks a long time to float back to surface...haha

i tried to bury my feeling, even for a while, but it's only getting stronger...
i know that nothing is forever, in the end, ashes to ashes, dust to dust....
but i just want that we could share joy and tears together,even once in a while, till the end of your times, then i will kiss you goodbye and thank you for the wonderful trip.

a month now....
bitter and laugh...
sad and happiness...
my love for her ....will never die...

晚上10点多了，她现在会在干啥呢？
不会还在实验室吧，忙了一天不知道累不累，这么晚开车回家会不会辛苦，今天还有没有力气去慢跑，嗯。。。难道在洗澡。。。想像ing。。。。
哈哈，心态变得好年轻啊，单相思的滋味还真是难熬呢，脑子里纷至沓来都是她的影子。。。。

she is about to quit the current job
then what she gonna do ?
whatever....pls stay in this city, so i can live with the hope to see her sometimes....

tomorrow is a good day
because i could see her
even if there are still possibility that she totally forget about the arrangement
and i have to wait for the next chance...
but still.....there is hope....and i am grateful......

想念如果會有聲音。。。
這層樓的弟兄們都要被我吵死了，哈哈。。。

今天看车展去了，回到家扫了一眼没关的msn，居然看到她在线
心里那头小野兽欢天喜地从窝里跳了出来，手舞足蹈。。。
打了个笑脸过去。。。msn却显示对方下线了，可能是网络延迟吧，
小野兽低低地呜了一声，摇摇尾巴又钻回到窝里去了。。。

睡得好香甜啊，然后就迟到了。。。。
还是梦到她了，一起逛街买东西试衣服剪头发上班。。。
场景还是在上海，不过又不太像，到处都是百年老树，小桥流水，店铺穿插其间，还有练摊的手艺人。。。

梦境般的夜晚，幸福得都快晕过去了。。。

你问我，为什么想和你见面，
怎么说呢，我想你都想得快疯了么。。。
嗯，说太多实话也不行，我得挖个洞说完之后盖起来再在上面种棵树。。。

度日如年啊，明天终于礼拜四了。。。
好期待啊。。。。

脑袋都是你，心里都是你。。。。
打电话之前的心情: 忐忑不安，心跳如擂鼓，无心工作。。。
打电话之后的心情: 欢呼雀跃，坐立不宁，还是无心工作。。。汗。。。。

爱情真是让人年轻啊。。。

meet her today...
the first part looks like the mix of best dream and worst nightmare...
best dream because there is just like every good dream of mine: with her , in the park , having fun, driving bicycle.....worst thing is i am just like a ghost, watching her doing all this with another people...feel like dying.....
the second part is much better, sing with her,
well , there are somebody else, but i feel good enough just to sing for her...from deep inside of my heart...

有多久没见你
以为你在哪里
原来就住在我的心里
陪伴我的呼吸

如果有个叫做m6鉴别赛的话，俺肯定是冠军。。。
只要远远看一眼，即便只是躲在其他车子后面露出个小角
也能分辨出m3还是m6,新款老款。。。。
无他。。。手熟尔。。。。

the best time of the day.....the time to go to bed...coz i can meet her in the dream....

Dream of her twice last weekend
in the first one she came to play pool with us, i tried to play with her but she's always on the other table, tracing her all night...
second one is pretty sweet....we went to a beach house for vacation, all i could remember is the soft blow of the sea wind through the house and her sweet lips....

“ 世界上既无所谓快乐或也无所谓痛苦；只有一种状况与另一种状况的比较，如此而已。只有体验过不幸的人才能体会最大的快乐。莫雷尔，我们必须体验过死的痛苦，才能体会到生的快乐。

所以，我心爱的孩子们，享受生命的快乐吧！永远不要忘记，直至上帝揭露人的未来图景的那一天以前，人类的一切智慧就包含在这四个字里面：‘等待’和‘希望’ ”

----基督山伯爵

saw her on line today
talk a little bit
wish her happy
then i am happy too.

"一生把你放在心里头，尽管未必能够长相厮守。
只要偶尔深夜想起了你，会有一丝暖暖的酒意"

今天又被销售拖去开会
其实完全可以不去的
来回驱车2个多小时
只为了在那儿发15分钟的呆
嗯。。。不过路上会路过她的高中。。。情不自禁想如果能和她一起上学的话。。。

stupid training all day....
would be much fun if she was in this training with me...
there would be a barbique this weekend, can i see her there?
by the way, i google her name yesterday, it means 'dream overflow'...
no wonder i dream about her all the time...

she changed her m6 to a yellow sport car ....
and i drove her home...
of couse it was a dream
and as i hoped for , the road never ends.....like for ever....

没有你的世界荒芜一片
思念静静蔓延

Dream

dream about her last night...again.....
at first it was like a old colleagues re-union or something
a lot of people gather around eating buffet...
and i just stand close to her and have a good look at her
after that the two of us went to see an opera
i don't quite remember what was the opera about coz most of the time my eyes was not focus on the stage, i was glad that the theatre was dark, so i can stare at her without anyone notice..
we sneak out in the middle of the show to another empty and dark show room
and kissed at the rear seat....
that was really a great dream...
don't wanna get out from that....
so here i am, just arrived the office...11 a.m.

Every each day, i think of her..
actually every where
no matter when i walk to office , back home, doing homework, working out,
yesterday while walking home, i am thinking about my bucket list
you know, the kind of list that if i have already done all the stuff on it, i can die tomorrow with no regrets.
let me think, i think of travell around the world, sky diving, bungee jumping，drive f1 once, and some other cool things....
but what i want most of them , is to kiss her again...

if i collect a coin every time i think of her
i would be a millionare now.....